nil.

I have absolutely no one to talk to right now.
She's so far away; I don't know where, or what she's doing, or what she's thinking.
I can't call her, or message her, or tell her how much I love her and miss her.

I haven't cried like this in a long time.

I didn't belong anywhere last night. I didn't want to be there without her.
I couldn't sleep for all the tears.

It's all too fucking much.

It hurts too fucking much.